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Who do I lean on when I need that shoulder to cry on. I honestly feel like I can't expose that person to family, there's a high possibility my partner may laugh at me, and friends are too busy to be focusing on my problems. I need to learn to do things for me and forget about the world. IM constantly the one that try to make sure everyone is ok. Feeding into everyones drama but my own. When I want to explain how I feel to someone, I constantly feel like its going in one ear and out the other. Im just being ignored. But I wonder what will happen if I turn the tables. If I became this super bitch that just doesn't give a fuck. Focusing only on me. Family is suppose to be there no matter what, but it seems like every since I came out with my sexuality, they changed. The door is ready for me to use it and leave. I honestly feel like I have no one to cry to but my Grandfather and GOD. I feel like only those two would listen. They're response to my questions are being answered in my actions. Sometimes I hear someone telling me to "just leave. Use my feet for what they are there for." But I don't know how. I've always been taught not to run away from my problems (I can fix it), but at this point I just feel like giving it all up. I think im at my breaking point. Push me Grandfather.