Answers

Who do I lean on when I need that shoulder to cry on. I honestly feel like I can't expose that person to family, there's a high possibility my partner may laugh at me, and friends are too busy to be focusing on my problems. I need to learn to do things for me and forget about the world. IM constantly the one that try to make sure everyone is ok. Feeding into everyones drama but my own. When I want to explain how I feel to someone, I constantly feel like its going in one ear and out the other. Im just being ignored. But I wonder what will happen if I turn the tables. If I became this super bitch that just doesn't give a fuck. Focusing only on me. Family is suppose to be there no matter what, but it seems like every since I came out with my sexuality, they changed. The door is ready for me to use it and leave. I honestly feel like I have no one to cry to but my Grandfather and GOD. I feel like only those two would listen. They're response to my questions are being answered in my actions. Sometimes I hear someone telling me to "just leave. Use my feet for what they are there for." But I don't know how. I've always been taught not to run away from my problems (I can fix it), but at this point I just feel like giving it all up. I think im at my breaking point. Push me Grandfather.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CIARA (ALBUM NEWS)

Ciara has been laying low as of late, but for good reason. The R&B singer is well into recording her fourth album and we’ve got the exclusive details.

Christopher “Tricky” Stewart and his songwriting partner The-Dream have been secretly spending the summer in the studio producing the entire follow-up to Ciara’s Fantasy Ride. Stewart broke the news to Rap-Up.com in an exclusive interview. “We’re doing the whole project,” he reveals. “We’re pretty good into it at this point. We’re about 14 songs deep right now.”

The 23-year-old ATLien relocated to the West Coast to work on the album with Tricky and Dream, who crafted “High Price” and “Like a Surgeon” off this year’s Fantasy Ride. “She came out to L.A. to work with us. We’re out here making this record ’cause it feels good and the vibe is good,” says the Grammy-winning producer.

The as-yet-untitled effort will feature danceable tracks that have become Ciara’s signature. “This record obviously is gonna have tempo to it, but I think it’s gonna have even more substance than the last record,” Tricky discloses. “She dances and we always want to bring out what she does that other people don’t.”

Although Fantasy Ride boasted collaborations with a who’s who of the industry including Justin Timberlake, Chris Brown, and Ludacris, the “Love Sex Magic” singer will be riding solo this time. “This album we wanted to take a few steps back and make it more about her, so the only feature is Dream. But the features that we do on this record will be remixes.”

The hitmaker even shared a couple song titles with Rap-Up.com. “I love ‘Speechless.’ I love this record called ‘Gifted.’ Those are two of my favorites. ‘Speechless’ is the record with her and Dream together.”

While there’s still the possibility of a release by the end of the year, it’s looking like 2010 will mark Super C’s return. “It’s a little up in the air, but there’s a chance that it might come this year. That was the goal, but at the same time, we didn’t want to rush anything. I think it’s looking more like a next year thing.”

Ciara is pulling out all the stops to make this her best work yet. “Right now, she’s on her grind, coming back, trying to make a better album than she made last time and get back to that mark where everybody knew that she was in the top tier of the female business.”

Ciara must have liked what she heard on Fantasy Ride this year. After working with producer Christopher “Tricky” Stewart on four of her album’s 13 tracks, the singer has given Tricky and his songwriting partner The-Dream domain over the entirety of her follow-up disc. But what we heard a lot on Fantasy — and what we likely won’t be hearing much on the new album — are Ciara’s high-profile collaborations with other artists.

“At this point in my career, it’s important for my fans to get to know more about me and to really feel me,” she told MTV News on the red carpet Saturday at Justin Timberlake’s charity event. “I’ve done a lot of features over the course of my career. I’m not saying that I won’t do any, but I want really my fans to come into my world. I’ve been very blessed to work with a lot of cool people, but this time it is about knowing me more and hearing more of me.”

Of course, Fantasy featured Ludacris, Chris Brown, Young Jeezy, Missy Elliott and Timberlake. The video for “Love Sex Magic,” which featured JT, nabbed a Best Choreography nomination at this year’s Video Music Awards.

Tricky recently told RapUp.com the name of two records they’ve recorded — “Gifted” and “Speechless,” which actually features Ciara with The-Dream — but Ciara said those two tracks are only the beginning of the “really crazy, really fun” album they’re putting together.

“I got on Tricky because he was spilling all the beans,” she laughed. “Those two records that he named are definitely awesome records and there are some cool ones that I’ve done lately that are just even more amazing.”

“It’s kind of reminding me of how it was for me at the beginning of my career,” she explained, “which is a really good feeling.”

CIARA TURNS 24 TODAY...AOWWWW

The Media's Couple

Rihanna and Chris Brown both release new projects this week. STRANGE. The funny thing is that both matrials are really good. Rihanna released her first single off her new album "Rate R" called "Russian Roulette". Which is a slow-tempo written by no other than fellow Def Jam artist "NeYo". "Its Cute". Very dramatic, and theatrical. Chris Brown on the other hand released 2 singles "Crawl" & "I Can Transform Ya". Both singles are HOT. "Crawl" is a slow-tempo song that kind of touches on the situation with him and Rihanna (shawty). "I Can Transform Ya" is a high-tempo, Dance Club Song. Which features Lil' Wayne and Swizz Beatz. Both songs will be featured in my music post at the top of the blog.
I personally feel like its time to move on. I love Chris & RiRi together. They were really cute together. They kind of reminded me of high school prom king and queen. They just looked that good together. I hate the fact that the media is coming for Rihanna because shes not talking about what happen between her and Chris. And thats exactly what she should be doing. Ppl want her to be this avocate for domestic vilonce. No get tha hell outta her with that.

Dawn's New Cut!!!

Dawn (ex Danity Kane new Dirty Money) gets a new hairdo. It's ova. I love it. It's tiger print in her hair. I love this new style shes taking on. With the new haircut, New Edgy look. Gooo Offf Dawn!!!!

Kelly Go Tha F**k Off!!!! Yesss

Ms. Kelly yesss... Lately she's been giving me everything I want. With this new look, new sound, new everything, Kelly Rowland is bound to take over the world. She was the first member of Destiny's Child to make the smartest career move of the bunch. She fired Matthew Knowles (Beyonce's father) as her manager and also left her label. I think she's ready. Bitches Spread Out Ms. Kelly Is Coming Thru!!!!

Ciara Parties With Her Besties Aowwww

Yess, my queen Ciara had another great night out with her best friends Lala Vazquez and Kim Kardashian. I love seeing them together. Reminds me of myself and my besite Paul. Kim's birthday is the 20th of this month and Ciara's is the 25. So there's a lot of celebration going on this month. aowwww

:Chucky

Leiomy Speaks On Lil'Mama's Comment On ABDC

Leiomy finally spoke to the public on how she felt about Lil'Mama's comment on a new episode of "The Luna Show" (http://www.youtube.com/user/TheLunaShowNY)

Here's what Lil'Mama said

"Leiomy, come on. Your behavior…it’s unacceptable. I just feel that you always have to remember your truth. You were born a man and you are becoming a woman. If you’re going to become a woman, act like a lady. Don’t be a bird, like 'Oh my god, I’m not doing this!' You know what I'm saying? It gets too crazy and it gets confusing. You’re doing this for America. Even though you’re the face for transgenders, you’re the face of America right now with this group and it’s not about anybody else. It's about y'all. You know what I'm saying? So do it for the team. Do it for the team."

PLZ WATCH THE LUNA SHOW. I LOVE IT SOO MUCH. YOU WILL LEARN MORE ABOUT THE BALLROOM SCENE AS WELL AS THE LIVES OF PEOPLE IN THE LGBT COMMUNITY

What A Man, What A Man Lance Gross

Wow.. This is amazing to me. Y'all know bodies is my cup of tea. When i spotted these pics i gagged. I always knew he had a great body under them clothes, but damn. I know him and his America's Next Top Model winner/fiance Eva Pigford have the best sex ever. They both are super good looking. Werk Eva.

I'm Feeling Like Gaga!!!!

Here it is, The official cover art for Lady Gaga's Re release Deluxe addition for her album

The Fame Monster

I LIVE!!!!!!

FAME

I want the fame, i want the lights, i want my name to light your nights, You'll know me because on your TV, it is I that you see... You see, it wasnt always this way, I had a road to pave.I'm so addicted to this thing, its my drug, it makes me sing, they call my name, my cell phone rings and everybody is looking at me.... All eyes on me, spot light on me. This is clearly home for all to see, if you want it, i can give it, if you flip it, i will dip it. Thought i was at the bottm, look up sweety i'm on top. Baby my title is platinum. Your just a flop. My individuality, sparks your curiosity makes you wanna follow me, and raise my popularity....now i'mm running your city, From me to you, some advice, As fly, fly thru life, let nothing stop you from the far FAME!!!!